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Reflections from a different vantage point #article
Miriam Grunhaus

Reflections from a different vantage point

It is hard to see the detail when we are so close to the picture. But the miracles in our...

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A Second Act Story #article
Miriam Grunhaus

A Second Act Story

I was physically and emotionally ill. My immune system was a compromised. I was crumbling.

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Dreams of Motherhood Shattered #abandonment
Miriam Grunhaus

Dreams of Motherhood Shattered

I was crying, and I told my husband, "I mourn the death of me." "Why is everything so out of...

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A Dream Becomes a Nightmare #article
Miriam Grunhaus

A Dream Becomes a Nightmare

He remained abstinent for the few weeks leading up to the birth, but then began to use a week after....

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The bond of Kintsugi #abandonment
Miriam Grunhaus

The bond of Kintsugi

Wow! I continued writing, as she was saying, “I am so lucky.” At my count, I believe she said it...

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Prelude to Kintsugi #abandonment
Miriam Grunhaus

Prelude to Kintsugi

This is me! I am broken and mended! I survived a divorce before I survived my mother's suicide, and I...

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